Is this really what I want to do?

The last couple of months have been a great diversion. All I do is work. And it's completely crazy hours. I must be hiding from something. Maybe it's life.

The more and more I work the more and more I would just like to stay home and be a good mom. Or have my own business. I figure if I'm putting in all these crazy hours I might as well be doing it for myself.

I read other mom's blogs. It's kind of depressing. They all have funny antidotes about what their kids are doing. Mine goes to daycare. I have no idea what he does there all day. They get to vent about how their kids destroyed there house right after they cleaned it. My house still has some Christmas decorations up and is filthy. They have time to have hobbies. My scrapbook area has a layer of dust so thick I can't even tell what's under it.

I'm not saying that being a SAHM is any easier that being a working mom. It's so not. SAHM are underappreciated by society and maybe even their own families. I just really feel like I'm missing out on the one reason why we had children. To watch them grow.

Sorry folks, no list for me today. I just can't do it.

Apparently I Have Been Tagged

Thanks to Alissa...
I started this a few days ago and am just now getting around to it.

Seven things to do before I die:
Have a bit part in one of my dh's movies
Travel to all the continents
Catch up w/ my scrapbooks
Own a house
Buy my parents a car
Be debt free
Star in a musical

Seven things I cannot do:

1. Keep my house clean.
2. Avoid Hollywood Gossip, heck gossip in general. My life is so boring it seems.
3. I cannot eat hummus again. Ever. Gag. Barf.
4. Stick to long term goals/promises. Like working out. Or eating right. Or keeping my house clean.
5. Stay in touch w/ friends after they have or I have moved away. I have one exception to that rule, my bff Stephanie.
6. Give up eating sweets. Over my dead body would that happen.
7. I cannot stop obsessing about owning our own home.
   
   

Seven Things that Attract Me to My Spouse(not necessarily in this order!):

1. He's hot.
2. He is sincere.
3. He's a great dad.
4. Most day's he's a great husband.
5. He buys me flowers.
6. He lets me do what I want.
7. He came home on his lunch today to make me dinner.

Seven Things I Say (or write) Most Often:

1. 
   What, Gabe?
2. Seriously?
3. I love you.
4. Gabe, stop playing w/ that.
5. Whatever.
6. What time do I work again?
7. How would you like your return?

Seven books I love:

1. Emma
2. Pride and Prejudice
3. Sense and Sensibility
4. Persuasion
5. Mansfield Park
6. Harry Potter
7. Historical Novels
   

Seven movies I could watch over and over again: (This is a huge stretch for me as I'm not one who actually likes to watch movies again and again.

1. Ten Things I Hate About You (Oh Heath, your such a hottie)
2. White Christmas
3. Any Rogers/Hammerstein Musical
4. Anything w/ Carey Grant, Doris Day or Judy Garland. Or Bing. Or... ok, I admit to being in love w/ the old movies.
5. Sweet Home Alabama
6. Emma
7. Pride and Prejudice

Seven people I want to join in:
Does anyone actually read this thing that hasn't already done it? I mean really?

The Truth Is Out There... And It Hurts

So, I've been in my department for all of two weeks. And because I want to move into management I am under more scrutiny than most. OMG, I cannot believe how catty it gets there.

Things Onica needs to work on at work.

1. Not being so sarcastic w/ co-workers.
2. Quit being so bossy w/ said co-workers.
3. Be more pro-active.
4. Take ownership of the department.

Ok, so yes, I am sarcastic w/ a few co-workers. Just the ones that are absolutely horrid and total sharks. (A shark is someone who only sells and won't do anything else, a shark also will try to help as many people as they can and leave nothing for everyone else).

There are some serious slackers in my department. Some of them have been there for less time than I have. I know that this "review" is because of them. They are total suck ups to the boss.

So, I will take the advice given. I will also take the advice given by another co-worker....

TRUST NO ONE.

Very X-files if you ask me.

Things I need, desperately.

1. A house with a yard. Gabe aparently is a marathon runner and loves to run. I hate going to the park everyday. It would just be easier on my poor lazy soul if I could just have a yard of my own.
2. Money
3. More time
4. New clothes, mine are getting too loose for me to wear. (Yessssuh)
5. New shoes. I've totally worn out all of my work ones I bought 3 months ago. Plus, they are killing my feet.
6. An actual date with my husband. I think we went on one last on our aniversary... IN AUGUST!
7. Magic fingers like Mary Poppins. Why is it that when I sing and snap my fingers all the stuff in my house doesn't pop back into it's place?
8. Did I mention money? Seriously. Any day now folks.

Uh...

Freak. I'm tired. My legs hurt. I have a headache. AND I get to go to work.

I need a vacation.

Seriously. I worked like a dog from October to Christmas. I had one week of not so busy at work and then I transferred departments. HOLY HECK! I thought I was busy before. That's nothing compared to what I do now. Seriously, I should videotape myself at work. I would be a blur.

Luckily I don't have to be at work until noon today. I think I feel a list coming on...

Things to Do Before Going to Work

1. Eat
2. Take a long hot bubble bath
3. Get dressed
4. Hang out w/ my family
5. Maybe, just maybe put away the Christmas decorations.
6. Enter the HGTV Dream Home Giveaway.
7. Put on makeup. I look like death warmed over.

On second thought, I'll get to the Christmas decorations tomorrow.

Crap, My Christmas Decorations Are STILL Up

It's the 5th of January people. The FIFTH and my Christmas decorations are still up. And do I care? A little, but I'm so freaking tired just thinking about putting it all away is giving me a headache.

Yesterday..... Oh yesterday. It was like my first day all over again. Except this time I know how to use the registers and all of the logistical crap. Whole new floor (I used to be on the third floor, now I'm on the first), and new product that I know almost nothing about. I'll catch up fast. I'm a smart girl. So yeah, first day in a new department is a little overwhelming.

We are starting to potty train Gabe. I don't know how we will accomplish this with our crazy-never-the-same schedules. He's doing all right, but it could be better if I could take a week off and just work with him at it. It really helped a lot that my in-laws were down here for a week right after Christmas and worked with him on it.

THINGS THAT I WOULD DO IF I HAD MORE TIME...

1. Read my scriptures
2. Potty train my son
3. Go back to school, or at least do the fun things like band and drama
4. Scrapbook more
5. Clean said scrapbook area
6. Heck, clean my house
7. Go walking to the park w/ the Gabester. He loves that.
8. Go on vacation, to someplace other than home to visit family that I never get to see
9. See more movies w/ my DH.
10. See more movies w/out my dh (chick flicks!!)
11. Paint my toe nails.

Moving on up!

So today is my first day in my new department at Nordies. For the past 3 months I have been in the infants/toddlers department and have been doing rather well. But, I want to go into management and my store manager doesn't really like to promote out of the kids wear departments and wanted to see me in something more challenging. (Screaming mothers isn't a challenge?). My new department...

Accessories.

Scarves, Hats, Belts, Sunglasses, Hair Accessories. All designer of course. And not one freaking thing that I can afford. Not like I need any of it. See, that's the hard part about working retail. This overwhelming feeling that you have to keep up w/ the Joneses. Well, I'm trying hard to beat that feeling down. So far, so good.

The good thing about Nordies... I make commission off my sales. The bad... They deduct any returns from my sales. Sucks. Thus the reason for moving into management. Granted I will have WAY more stress, but...

Reason why management would work well for me...

1. Salary PLUS commission
2. 33% discount (I only get 20 right now)
3. Never really have to close ever again unless I want to.
4. I get to make my own schedule.
5. Managers are only required to work 1 Sunday a month. Right now I work all of them.
6. I get to be bossy and have a darn good reason for it.

Not too shabby. There are some minuses. Like during sales (three times a year) you have to put in 12+ days. But to be home every night by 6 for the most part would be wonderful. More time w/ my family and a more steady income. At least my personal life would be less stressful.

Where's the M?

So this is my 3rd stab at blogging. I'm not kidding you. Maybe this time I will be better. I stopped blogging because my free trial was over. Let's face it folks, I'm freaking poor. No way in heck am I paying for something that I can get free.

For those of you who don't know me, my name is Onica. Sounds like Monica but without the M. I'm a married for four years, working mom to a 3 year old, devout Mormon who secretly wishes she was famous. I scrapbook, crochet and spend too much money on clothing and the aforementioned hobbies. My starving artist husband and I live in the vicinity of Los Angeles. Oh, and for what it's worth we met in a chat room. There, I said it.

So, that pretty much sums up who I am right now. Oh, and I'm a list maker. People who have read previous vestiges of my blog know this.

Here is my list for today:

Onica's New Years Goals (a few days late, but whatever)

1. Lose the last 15 pounds from when I was pregnant... THREE YEARS AGO.
2. Sell as many Gucci sunglasses and Hermes scarves as I can (I work at Nordstroms)
3. Become a manager.... buy myself my very first "Handbag" (I'm going for a Chanel one!)
4. Never, ever be late paying my bills again. (This is a hard one folks, I can't ever remember to do anything lately)
5. Read the Book of Mormon again.
6. Get pregnant and have a healthy baby.
7. Quit eating so much freaking ice cream.
8. Spend more time w/ my son when I get home from work.
9. Go on dates w/ my dh. Real ones. Taking the kid along does not count.
10. Scrapbook more, be lazy less. Seriously I have a fortune in scrap supplies. Can I please use them?